As I was cleaning the windows....I saw you driving by and I wondered if your heart ever thinks of me.

Just here to say how grateful I am that I made it through................

THIS is 1990:




THIS is 2008:




I'll always love Tina.......

TheLotusPhoenix

OH!!! Guess what!!!! Today...I was going to the post office to mail a big bill out....246 bucks....and chanting all the way.... well I got back to work and one of my friends...out of the blue....IM'ed me and paid one of my utility bills!!!!! I didn't ask or anything!!!! Just said..I wanna do this....Merry X-Mas! Totally unexpected! It was the Myoho Renge Kyo coming to my aid once again.....

I've Definitely been taking Shakubuku to the next level lately. And people see the changes in my life and demeanor. I had a Christian tell me yesterday he could see what I possessed was REAL! That was awesome. ;-)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XsMkOIwzHLI


thelotusphoenix: have you seen where Nichiren was to be executed and the comet appeared and scared off the Shoguns?
*****: every thing happens for a reason
thelotusphoenix: Yes.
*****: not all of it
thelotusphoenix: Well...that's the jist. But, do you recall Nov of 2007...when that comet all of a sudden became 1,000,000 time brighter for no apparent reason?
*****: vaguely
thelotusphoenix: Well.....during that 3 day span is when I escaped from my ex of 3 yrs.....
thelotusphoenix: Who'd been beating the hell out of me.
thelotusphoenix: We had cars.....leasing a nice house...the whole 9 yards
thelotusphoenix: He'd moved his new one in already
thelotusphoenix: while I was there
thelotusphoenix: So I packed my personal stuff and left EVERYTHING.
thelotusphoenix: A friend from work kept me for 3 days before I moved in here
thelotusphoenix: And during that time the comet event took place
thelotusphoenix: And I'll always hold it as my own.
thelotusphoenix: http://www.newscientist.com/article/dn12880
*****: sounds like it helped you in some way gave you the impetus to action
thelotusphoenix: It happened right after I left
thelotusphoenix: I didn't know it was going on......
thelotusphoenix: The comet that suddenly became about a million times brighter nearly two weeks ago continues to "shine" with abnormal luminosity, leaving observers puzzled over what caused the outburst and whether the comet will perform an encore in the coming months.
*****: had not hear about this before
thelotusphoenix: During this articles time.....19:24 05 November 2007 by Kimm Groshong ........I was in my car leaving.
*****:cool
thelotusphoenix: After I got to Dave and his wife's house.....I was outside...saw it, but didn't know about it
thelotusphoenix: Next day I found out.
thelotusphoenix: Let's say I was "cemented".

At Tradewinds. Drugs it seems. And I'm here. Writing this.....healthy....alive and thankful. I hope they find peace......

Well....once again the universe comes to my aid. As you all know, I was struggling with some heavy issues that just wouldn't stop. And also, as you all know, I'm into Gem magick. So after a rough night Thursday-Fri...I woke up and happened to grab one of my books and the page opened to Sunstone. As I read, my day unfolded before me in my mind. So I went and got some Chinese and to Pearls Of Wisdom (AWESOME store). I went thru the Sunstones they had and found the one that "spoke" to me. Got a few more things and headed out.

Sunstone, as quoted from the Crystal Bible, is extremely useful for removing hooks or soul-ties you can get from other people. These can happen w/o people even being aware of them. They can be at the mental or emotional level...or both. They are VERY energy draining. Sunstone can lovingly cut the tie and send it back to the one it came from with a no-harm, no foul type of energy. It also emparts enthusiasm, lifts mood and can lift negative emotions and transmute them into the positive.

When things like this happen, I've decided to start sharing about it. If you are experiencing some un-resolved issue that seems just will not stop nagging you, it could be soul-ties.

Get a small piece of Sunstone, (the store I mentioned has a great selection), and a white candle and some incense. Hold the white candle in your right hand and empower it by affirming in your mind and heart the situation thats plaguing you...and the person you need release from. Your right hand is your projective hand. (Unless left-handed. Then use your left hand for this working). Look into your Sunstone, affirm the same and light your candle and incense and lay your Sunstone near. Let the candle and incense burn out completely.

My personal experience is that I felt almost an immediate clearing and lifting begin to take place. And this morning I'm writing this to you because it's an AWESOME day and the air is CLEAR!

I hope this helps you have an awesome day as well! ;-)

I think I'm more wounded than what I originally thought. Maybe it's just because it's still so soon. Instead of looking at people with hope....or as a prospect, I'm automatically feeling mistrust w/o even knowing them. Maybe it's being left in love with no resolution. All of the altars of hope are not gone, but the ones that to me were most beautiful now lie desolate. Who knew that the last kiss would be the last? Saying goodbye is one thing. Saying good riddance is something else totally. Self worth has a way of plummeting when you're told you weren't loved and the ease of the brush-off confirms it. I try and try to trace back.....to what caused everything to break down, but so many scenarios are possible. I got kicked into emotional overload by the sudden shock I think is why I lashed out. It's a cold day today....and yet I sit...once again....just thinking of a warm Lil Bear.